This picture above is a picture of the fortune that I got last week, out of my fortune cookie at a Chinese restaraunt. Ironic, huh? Usually, those fortune cookies are so corny, and say crap like "Look around the corner, happiness is waiting for you", or something like that....But when I cracked that particular fortune cookie open, (and didn't eat it, cuz those things are gross), I got chills when I saw these words.....
This is a time for caution, but not for fear
Eeek. Those are freaky, scary words for me to see right now for some reason. My surgery is in 2 weeks from this coming Tuesday. 2 weeks....I'm trying to not stress....To not worry...To not think about the "worst-case-scenarios", but it seems that whenever I lay down at night, that is all my mind starts to do...It's awful. I wish I could turn it off.
Fear is starting to set in about my surgery. It's a big surgery. Yes, I know that people have surgery every day, women have had this surgery before, and everything usually goes okay. I don't want to worry too much about the unknown, but how can I not? I'm going to really try to be positive, to think positive, and that's all I can do.....Be cautious, but not fearful....Do not let the fear control or break me down. I'm stronger than that. We all know that, don't we? Haha.