Tuesday, May 11, 2010

A Lesson in Fate


This is something that got me thinking last night.........Is having surgery to prevent cancer kind of like messing with God's fate? Is it my fate to have cancer? Am I going against God's will by having my body parts' removed, just so I won't get cancer? 

Okay, okay...Maybe I am over-analyzing this whole thing way too much, but seriously.(My husband often says I "over analyze everything...Well, I'm a girl..What do you expect??)..Look at it this way...Look at how people look down upon people for getting tattoos, body piercings, etc., just because they say, "Our body should serve as God's temple, blah, blah, blah."...So how do those people see having breasts removed, just for the sake of NOT getting cancer, due to a faulty gene in our DNA??  Do they see it differently, just because it's medically necessary?

And on top of having my breasts removed, I'm getting new ones, FAKE ones, to replace them, WITH tattooed areolas. Whoa! What about that? Talk about really messing up my temple!  Is that messed up to think about what God thinks about all of this?  Am I going against what He has written in my book of fate?  When I was born, he wrote, in my book of life, that I would have this BRCA2 gene, and that I would probably get breast cancer at a young age, just like my mom. Now I know that I can't predict the future, but from every doctor's point of view that I have talked to, they have all informed me that I "will probably get breast cancer by the time I am 35 or 40" and that I "don't stand a chance against breast cancer", because of my mom's history with the disease. I have already had lumps in my boobs, already had mammograms done, already had breast MRI's done, already had the scares, and I don't want to live a life of fear. So why should I NOT take this opportunity to go against fate and chop my boobs off? (I know that sounds a little ugly, but it's the truth...)

There are other genetic tests out there that people can choose to take that can tell them if they are at risk for Alzheimer's Disease, for example, but there is nothing that they can do to prevent it, that are as drastic as having a PBM for mutated BRCA genes...No surgeries they can do to cut their risk by 90%....But if there were other genetic tests available for lung cancer, skin cancer, eye cancers, heart cancer, colon cancer, etc., would those people at risk take fate into their hands and have those organ(s) removed from their bodies? It's not realistic in most cases...The body can't function without a heart, withoug lungs, without skin, and if they can, it's not a quality life, in most circumstances...So my point is that I feel lucky  that I am able to have my breasts removed, reconstructed, and have my cancer risk reduced by 90%, all at the same time as living a good life. That's fate, if you ask me.

If fate wants me to have cancer, then I say fuck fate. I'm gonna do everything I can to change fate. I'm not saying I'm going against God, by any means. I'm saying that, hopefully, in God's book of life for me, He wrote that I will defy the laws of fate, and will live a life longer than expected, due to taking an opportunity that only I could decide to take for myself. Fate is something that I can control, and in my book, I will control it. Fate only takes you so far, and then it's up to you to make it happen. Remember that.

1 comment:

Annyston said...

I personally believe that God gives us life and He gives us free will. We have to live this life the best we can and let God guide us through it all. There are many paths to take and which one we feel is right for us. We can pray and ask God to help us make the right decision. I believe God has given people the brains and ability to discover ways to find genes and learn about diseases and find better ways to deal with these diseases. So no, I don't think you are "going against fate". I know that God makes good out of all situations and I know that He will use you to bless others. Whether its speaking out about getting tested for the genes or whether its just being able to console and understand what other people in your situation are going through, God will use this for good!